I'm pretty sure I was in a GREAT mood like two hours ago, and now.. I'm in the worst mood ever. I could just freak out right now.. & the reason why I'm in a bad mood? I have no fucking clue.
I'm at work. The time seems like it's going by SO slow. I think I'm just super excited for tomorrow night, but at the same time, I'm not too excited because I don't wanna be tired.. I want to get really drunk and have fun. HOPEFULLY I will have fun.. and hopefully I'll get completely smashed.. to the point where I don't know my own name. I hate getting really drunk, though... only because I hate being drunk and having no one to take care of my drunk ass. Soooo I dunno.
I'm so miserable tonight. I don't wanna talk to anyone right now, or see anyone. I just want to be alone.
When I'm this bitchy, I just like being alone to calm down and try to not be so cranky... I don't wanna be rude to people for no reason, or treat people who I care about like shit.
I just realized I am so random. I talk about one thing, and it just leads to something completely different. Oh myyyyy.
There are just some customers who I wish I could tell to fuck off and never come back.. but I'm pretty sure that would cost me my job.
Yup. I love that song. Haven't listened to Atreyu in a LONGGG ass time. Same with A7X, The Used, Disturbed, Finch.. ohh mann, I used to listen to soo much music. What happened?! lol
I think I'm starting to cheer up a bit. I need a cigarette.
Nope. That didn't really help.
Fuck this blog...
well for tonight at least.
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Oh my, I too now love that song :P
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. It's like you feel something just isn't right in your life even when things seem normal and okay. I do that a lot. And trying to figure it out upsets me more because of all the possibilities of things I'm doing wrong and decisions I could have made with some common sense in mind. It's like I live to point out my every mistake and I never know how to fix them. lovely.
Time for my blog now too.
Love you long time!!!